Is there a term for someone who develops heightened anxiety due to a lack of control? If there isn’t maybe we could name it after me? My God. I am in such a bad place today, and all of the contributing factors point back to ONE thing: having no control over a situation. (The Juicy Peach Alani I’m drinking probably isn’t helping.)
Luke had his last chemo infusion Friday. Now we wait a little over 2 weeks for his final PET scan. Then we wait 2 more days for results. We have absolutely no idea if the chemo worked. No clue what plan B will be if the scan still shows cancer. Waiting, the unknowns…needing to have patience and faith? God is really testing me right now.
Like I mentioned in my previous post we also have some things going on behind the scenes in our family that are “hurry up and wait” situations with many unknowns. I’m not exactly known for my patience, and I don’t have the greatest track record when it comes to “trying not to worry about things out of my control.” Maybe you all should pray for my husband, not just only for a clean bill of health but for having to put up with my crazy.🤪
Anyone who reads this next part, except those that know me best, will think I’m being ridiculous. So, you’ve been warned…. Not only did my beloved Bills lose Saturday, ending their season and the crushing the souls of every Mafia member, but this morning Coach was fired. I’m pretty much inconsolable at this point. I chalk it up to the “perfect storm” currently raging inside of me. I can literally feel the weight of all the things I can’t control piling up in my gut.
I promise I’m trying to give it to God, but for someone whose anxiety is generally exacerbated by a lack of control, that’s easier said than done.
Oh, AND…. that was a catch!
Rooted + Roaming 