Disconnect: as a noun, it refers to a lack of connection, communication, or compatibility between two things, such as a gap between ideas or policies. The last 2 months or so I’ve felt a huge disconnect from God. From religion. I had been really working towards building my relationship with God and growing on my faith, but suddenly it all dissipated. It’s actually a scary feeling. I’m not sure when or where it happened, and I don’t want to make excuses, but it feels like when we got the good news about Luke’s cancer and everything sped up 100mph with spontaneously making an offer on a new home and having to rush to fix ours, I just pushed through the motions and forgot to focus on my original mission. Then, of course, life happened – kids’ activities, work, illness, etc., and now I feel like I’m so far off I don’t know how to get back.
I feel embarrassed. Ashamed? Definitely disappointed in myself. I’m tired, happy, but also sad. Weird right? I’m not sure what the next step is, and I’d pray on it but I literally feel this “rift” between myself and my faith right now, and oddly enough – after everything these past 9ish months, I should be more excited and grateful than ever. I don’t understand, and it doesn’t make any sense. At least I’m finally saying it out loud – or typing it publicly – instead of just ignoring it like I have been.
Rooted + Roaming 
The Holy Spirit is in you. When we feel disconnected from God, the Holy Spirit intercedes for us and takes our thoughts to God. We all have times of disconnect. Open your Bible and just randomly read. Join a Bible Study. We have a good one. Grace Lutheran Wednesday mornings 9:00. You do not have to be a member of our church. It is an hour long. Don’t worry, God is with you. He understands He will never forsake you. Take care. God is Good.
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